work

first time in my life i'm working.. hope i am doing fine.. hahaz.. its quite fn lah.. but i heard when it gets routine, i'll get bored. hope not.. :)

troubled

The path just wasn't there. I guess all i can do is to give up. Can't do anything more. Sometimes, its just not fated to be. My goal is not achievable by my standard. Maybe because i didn't studied hard enough. haiz.

Friends

Alvin just sent me a sms this morning about friends and mornings which i feel is very true. Yepz. Thanks, appreciate it(dont say i niang horz).

Yesterday was supposed to go night cycling with poon, wee kim and bing zhao. In the end, Bing Zhao can't make it and Poon was feeling sick so he didn't really want to go. So we cancelled the whole event. However, Wee Kim has come all the way from Amk to Seng Kang and he was quite pissed because we pang sehed him. Luckily i was at Seng Kang eating dinner with sl. So went to accompanied him after eating with sl. We walked around the region and talked. What is really amazing is that we have not met each other for such a long time(about 6 months or so since we last met) and we had so much to talked. I remembered we walked to KFC and talked till about 10(their closing time), then, we went to meet nicholas(tan jin pei) and we talked till 1130. Then, we went to wait for the 86 bus at the bus stop but it didn't appear so we went to the 70 bus stop and in the end he decided to go my house to stay over(although there was a 70 bus). walking to my house, i discovered that we had a lot in common and i really enjoyed talking to him. However, upon reaching my house, i discovered thatr my parents had change the lock(which prevented me from reaching home) so we decided to go amk macdonald to chat. We walked all the way there. I can still vividly remembered we reached there at about 130am in the morning. We chatted till 6 before we part.

come to think of it, its really amazing that i can spent so long a time talking to wee kim(from 830 till 6). hahaz.. thanks alot. learnt alot and really enjoyed it.

Wishing to see. to hold and to talk. life is full of uncertainties.

hopeless and helpless. Nothing i can do.

Him

Went out yesterday to buy shirt. In the end, i bought i coat of $60. Quite expensive but luckily its inside my budget. I have thought of buying a long pants and what but i will just have to settle with the less expensive stuff. Felt quite sianz yesterday. Don't really know the reason why(or i should say i know the reason why but i just don't want to say it out).

Felt very lost nowadays. Just can't see the goal in front of me. Sometimes, i felt like giving up but i guess i just "tricked" myself into believing that the goal is right ahead. In my heart, i know that it is still a long long way ahead. What's more is that i don't even know if there is really a path to the goal . Maybe there just isn't anything i can do about it. Maybe i can't really reach the goal. On the other hand, maybe i can.

Life is full of uncertainties. However, i will try my best to go for those goals i will. If i fall, i will fall with pride that i have done my best and that it just wasn't meant to be.