Facade

What is a facade?

A sigh of relief

This week is really very torturous.

It started out with the presentation on Thursday and also the planning for the negotiation. Also there were some side issues but they are not important though they sap up some time. Busy like hell with plenty of work to do. Not to help was the drinking session. Really regreted doing that as I personally felt cheated and betrayed by it when people backstabbed me. Actually, now thinking about it, I am damn pissed off. So this is what you get from helping people. A stab in the fucking back.

On the other hand, this week is crazy is also because of the incidents that happened. So many things happened. It really made me go bonkers. Felt really lonely during Friday and Saturday. Although I always seem career-driven but i know the main reason why i am there is because of my family. And that includes my brother and uncle who is not related to me by blood. Luckily things are solved. Felt and feel frustrated by my character.

This episode made me learn a lot. It made me stronger. It also let me recognize that some people which you call friends or close buddies might not be so. I remember asking a buddy out to chat thrice and gotten rejected thrice. THRICE. When I need him the most. Disappointed. I wanted to turn to some but they are just not the one or I dont feel comfortable talking to them. It really shows what kind of person i am and what kind of friends i have.

However, am very grateful to have Alvin and Nathan.

Alvin - First, i would like to apologize to you for not confiding in you. It just seems weird that i speak to you about loneliness and relationship. Though you are my best friend but our usual topic is on personality and character. Loneliness just seems so gay to be talking to you with. Forgive me on that. But do trust me that u are very very very very important to me.

Nathan - Working with you. Knowing you. It just seems different as we are quite different but the feeling is that we can be very very very good bros. Even a best friend. Although we have our differences, we will definitely work it out.

These are 2 of my best bros where i spend a lot of time with. At this moment of time, i really hope that it will be the same in 50 years' time.