Failure

I dont need anyone to understand and i guess i wont want anyone to understand.

somehow, i am just putting up a false front to others. i know i am a failure and i know i have done fucking badly. i know i have to buck up and i know i have let my family down. fuck. i feel damn fucking bad.

however, i do not need anyone to know this neither do i want. told my frens(some at least). pretend to be okie. i dont want sympathy. let me drown in this darkness.

pissed off at myself. let me rot. sometimes, i just have no correct person to share this info(note the term correct and not close cos i have close frens). why am i writing the disclaimer in front? no one read this blog. i dont need anyone to read this either. i just want to type to vent out my frustration.

do i?

on the other hand, met up with sl and mei. nice to talk after so long. nvr lose touch.

thinking if i will be successful in life. do not have the criteria to. fuck!