2013

So 2013 just started and here i am, bored at home, tying my blog post. I guess 2012 has been a very special year for me and here are some of my thoughts on 2013.

Some thoughts about 2012:
Many of my friends left for exchange in 2012 - Nathan, Cumar, Ian, Junlong, Yao Min. It has been a hard year as I was left in school alone. Looking back, I would hope that these friendships can last. Being abroad and in Singapore, people change and things change. Relationships change. How will we interact now? Is it still the same?

Alvin has gotten into the workforce. That is good but it means less time for our friendship. Its been a long time since i last saw him. Now in Nepal, I hope that he can remember our lasting friendship even though we have moved on into a new phase of life.

Old friends like Nick, Bingzhao, Raymond, Alphi, Ben, Kiat, Teck have been rekindled by getting together to play soccer. However towards the last few months, sessions have been few and i am beginning to think that they will be extinct soon.

I have gotten into a new relationship! Or rather, my first. I do sincerely hope that this will be my last. She has been an awesome girlfriend and deserve my wholehearted treatment. Personal time has been sacrifice but this is worth it. With this comes more responsibility and management of conflicts. I have been doing well so far, or so i hope, and i would like to bring this across to the new year.

What about 2013:
2013 will be the year i graduate and enter society. My friends will enter society and into the workforce too. We need to put in effort to keep in contact. I need to mature up rapidly to tackle this task of making money for my family and future family. I have many hopes and dreams to live up to and i do not intend to disappoint.

To my friends: Work hard, enjoy the last freedom and live your dream.

To my BEST friends: Keep in contact and do always remember that there is always a bro behind your back. I might not be able to do much but i will be able to support you emotionally and maybe give some small advice. I, on my own part, will make an effort to keep in contact and grow this relationship.

To my girlfriend: I love you and let us not take each other for granted okay? Let us build a home together and make this relationship awesome, as always. As the days go by, we do need some personal time to do our own stuffs and I will ensure that you will have it.

New Year

A new year coming ahead. It seems that friends have been further than ever. A best friend in Nepal, a best friend having some difficulties, a best friend in Korea and a best friend doing FYP(STILL DARE TO COMPLAIN BUSY).

Worried

I am so worried about her health, so worried that she might be overworked, so worried that she might be burnt out, so worried that she will feel sad, so worried about her mental state, so worried about her being bullied, so worried about her.

Singlehood VS Attached (Part 1)

Okay, first let me explain why part 1. This is because many friends have said that I am in my honeymoon period (which will last forever) and that i have not seen the real relationship. I have not started any arguments yet and everything is peaceful and well now. Therefore, i decided to name this post part 1. If there is no part 2, it means my honeymoon period has not ended yet.

So, why am I eligible to write this post? Because I was the most wanted bachelor for 24 years of my life. Okay, that is my freaking whole life. I was evergreen, enjoying singlehood like nobody's business, doing all sort of nonsense and exploring myself. So I guess it does gives me a bit of credibility on the singlehood part.

Okay, let's start before this post goes out of point:

1. Responsibility - As a single, you are responsible to no one but yourself. Family and parents and friends, ya they count but ultimately, you report to yourself. With a girl, I think we have to step up. I remember just 2 months ago, I was so excited about my business, wanting to work full time in it after school ends. Now, it is different. I need to watch my expenses, my budgeting and also my future prospect to pay and take care of her.

2. Time - Time is an issue now. Really something I need to manage better. I guess I have been adapting well thus far with work barely affected. However, I can do better. It used to be a case where I can spend a whole day doing nothing and still finish my work. Now, I need to better rationalize it. Nothing wrong, just more efficient. Because I really want to spend time with her.

3. Finance - This is just plain crazy. Need to do much better here to survive. OR I SHALL PERISH!

Okay, getting tired and bored now. Shall blog more soon!

Fool?

I just spoke to a friend. Or rather, someone which i thought is a friend.

Somehow, he is doing well, freelancing at a local advertising company, earning some money and also exposing himself to the marketing world. I, then, asked myself. Is it really good to start a business now, with no knowledge whatsoever of the market and what the world outside is like. Am I behind my peers in terms of knowledge and exposure? How do I catch up with them?

With that thinking, I started to ask more, in an attempt to learn more from him. I admit that perhaps, I wasn't too interested in the industry before. I am not fully aware of what is going on in this industry. And that naivety showed. I got dissed. He told me that I am not made out for this industry if I don't even understand it, that perhaps I should look for other opportunities. Honestly, I am pissed. Fucking pissed. You shall see one day that I will make it.

"Ask and be a fool for five. Don't ask and be a fool for life."

By doing what he did, he motivated me. I will do it and I will make it.

Honeymoon?

My Dreams
I hope to constantly miss you, hope to constantly think about you, hope to always never let you go. Is that possible?

Honeymoon Period
Always, people have mentioned that the honeymoon period is the sweetest and that after that comes a session of fights, arguments and perhaps separation. I really don't have any idea. I want this honeymoon period to last forever. What can I do to make this last? What must I do? Shall make a mental note to never take her for granted. Never.

Building Memories
These 2 (close to 3) weeks have been a journey for me. Memories which I have never built with anyone before. It is so new and yet, so refreshing.

A new beginnning

A new phase of life which I have never experienced before. It seems so unreal.

First of all, am i good enough? This is something which I have been asking myself for a while. Is my history, my capabilities good enough? How can I work harder to become good enough. Somehow or rather, I am worried that this might become a very real reason in the future.

Secondly, what are the issues of future concerns? Here are just 2 main issues which have been bugging me.
1. Money: My future, our future. Can I provide? I used to think that money will never be a concern. However, being practical, I guess this is one reasons why many people don't work out.

2. Interest: I want to be an entrepreneur. It signifies uncertainty, time, effort. Will there be any repercussions? How should I shape my future goals?

Thirdly, change. I read somewhere that the biggest challenge to a couple is change. How will I change? Will it have an impact.

Somehow or rather, I wonder if I am thinking too much? Enjoy the moment? Yes, I am. However, I do believe that there wont be any future without thinking about it now. I don't want to leave things to chance and luck. I want to succeed. I want to work it out.

Impossible is Nothing.